Slow Down, Gym Shoe!: Back To Nature... and a few updates!

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who commented on my last post, in which I was feeling very badly. Your kind words and encouragement meant so much to me! I don't have many people in "real life" who I can talk to right now, and it helps to know that at least there are a few people out in the world who understand and don't hate me. To answer one question, I have been on medication for depression (Celexa) for about nine years, on and off, but it doesn't seem to be working as well as it used to. I am really wary of medications because when I was a kid I was put on a really heavy medication that turned me into a zombie! My fear is ending up having to take all different kinds of psychotropic medications on a daily basis for the rest of my life, just in hopes of feeling normal!
At any rate I have still been feeling pretty crappy and hopeless. I am going to try calling the county health department today to see if I can at least go to a regular psychiatrist so maybe they can mess around with my medications. I've heard that if you are already taking a medication you can add Abilify and it will be like a booster or something. The last time I called the county to ask about medication management, they said I wasn't crazy enough and that they only helped people with severe mental illnesses, but maybe if I tell them I've been on the brink of suicide, they'll let me have an appointment???
Jimmy has been working this week so I have been watching the munchkins, which has been a welcome distraction. Today they are spending the day with their grandma though. Yesterday we had a pretty good day. We have been learning about birds, so we went to the grocery store and bought a couple bags of sunflower seeds (which can be bought with food stamps, unlike regular wild bird food!) and brought them down to our favorite nature center as a donation for the birds. We took a walk around the nature center and looked at all of the animals.
Little Bear really loves animals, and she says she wants to work at a nature center when she grows up, so she can hold and feed all of the animals! At this nature center, outside every cage there is a sign posted with the story of how the animal ended up there. Most have been injured too badly to be able to survive in the wild, and several were illegally raised in captivity until they were too tame to ever survive in the wild. Whenever we go to the nature center, I read the stories and tell the kids how the animals got there. And Little Bear remembers all those stories! This was the first time that we'd gone there in quite a while, and Little Bear knew which animals were new, and asked me to read the stories. And she remembered the stories of the other animals. I couldn't remember what animal was around one corner, but Little Bear told me, "Oh, that is the fox who lost his foot!" We walked up to the cage, and sure enough, she was right... it was a three-legged fox!
Here are a couple of pictures I took at the nature center.
By the way, can anyone borrow me $13.00 through Paypal ([email protected]) so I can get my cat some food? He is all out, and I don't have any cash left, after paying for my prescription the other day! I wish food stamps covered cat food! Sammy-Joe eats Wellness Brand food, and it is $13.00 for the small bag. If anyone could borrow it to me through Paypal, I will send it back to you on Monday!
OK, here are the pics...
Little Bear looking at a cage of birds.

Little Bear holds a "class" for me and Pufferfish inside the Quiet Reading Corner at the Nature Center!

I was trying to get Pufferfish to look at me and point to the birds at the same time, but it was just confusing her! I don't know what she was doing in this picture!